- I finally began working less
- My kids did great on their SOLs
- Moral of the story: put in effort and care about the kids, but there the law of diminishing returns applies. This upcoming year I am determined to work less, climb more (I'm a rock climber), and devote more time to those loved ones outside of school.
As my focus becomes more balanced in life, I've decided to focus more of this blog on reflections outside of school. It's no secret to those that have been around me that the past year has been extremely difficult. Mostly because I was often unable to handle in a positive way the challenges that I faced, I lost the person I grew to love more than anyone, including myself.
Reflecting on this, I realize now that I need to be more balanced in my life. Devotion to work and loving my children is important, especially since I am following God's plan for my life. However, remembering to love and connect with God needs to be my first priority. Following that, I needed to communicate with and love the person that loved me most. I once thought that I couldn't love this person any more than I did. Looking back, it is clear that I could have. It had always been easy for me to put her needs above mine, but when I was hurting, insecure, and scared of being hurt more, I was unable to do so.
Although it is too late now to dwell on these mistakes, I have many regrets about how I balanced my life last year and wish I could have handled things differently. I can only hope this was a good learning experience and that next time I won't wait until it is too late to hold on to the one that I love.
